Monday, March 14, 2011
I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone now. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone. I don't like anyone.
Maybe if I type this long enough, I'll start believing it too.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Well, I guess I'm starting to fall for this guy. I really don't want to, but I can't stop that right? But it's so annoying. I don't know for sure if I truly like him for who he is, or if I like him just because he cares about me. I don't want it to be that way. Maybe putting all these feelings aside now is the best thing for me to do now, it feels like the right thing to do. Things have been rough, and he has always been there listening to me, talking to me and telling me whats right or wrong. But it's not about all those, is it? It's how he makes me feel, how happy I get when I text him all night long. Be it if we're flirting or arguing about something stupid, it still makes me happy. And that's how I want things to be, but no ones a fool to not know that I actually like him, alot.
And then there's my ex. It's like, he's trying to make me jealous. And no, I don't even like him as a boyfriend or anything. But I want him back, but nothing more than just a bestfriend. I keep wanting to text him and talk to him but I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. It's like, when I tell him I saw a cute guy and he smiled at me, my ex has to rub it in that 5 girls asked him out on valentines day and even booked places for him. Honestly, are you trying to make me jealous? I hope not, we've got no reason to make each other jealous.
I just want my life back the way it used to be. Before there were even any guys involved. The more I talk to the guys in my life, the less I want to be any of them. The less I want to know them, the less I want to date. And the more I feel like being crook. And I don't want to feel this way. It feels really horrible, and I really want to break down. But I'm stronger than that right, so I'm not gonna let some guy get his way with me and drive me nuts. They're all just using me for entertainment, prolly. But I don't know. And the only way I'll ever know is by letting nature take it's course and do its work. Till then I can only wait and if I've got a really strong urge to do something, I'm gonna do it. Yup.
Monday, January 24, 2011
It's been ages since I've blogged here. So yeah, I decided to blog here since tumblr is down and I really need to blog. HAHA. So well, life's been pretty good recently. Well, maybe it isn't good, but it will be good, that I believe. I went for church on saturday, and it was really awesome. It gave me a whole new perspective to why certain things happen in my life. Then today was well, pretty tiring. I went to a kindergarten at dunman road which is near east coast. Then I headed back to school then back to asian civilisations museum and then we walked to Funan and then I walked to Bugis to meet charmaine after that. I really miss old times, those good old carefree days. Well, we never treasure the things we have till we lose it. But we won't know what we have till we lose it. But yeah, I really miss being in queensway, being really crazy about soccer to the extend I'd skip lunch just to play soccer. And most of all, I miss my dearest coach who taught us how to play soccer and what passion really was. If not for a coach like him, I prolly won't be the person I am today. So, thank you coach. You've been really good to me, and one day, I promise to make you proud and do something for you. I really want you to know, you're one of the few people who have impacted my life in such a great way and for that you'll never ever be forgotten.
Monday, August 31, 2009
The past few days have been going well, despite the on going prelims. Managed to relax and enjoy abit, after so long. But I keep having this urge, after so long, now I'm having it again. This time it feels so weird, I shan't bother about anything or anyone till the end of O levels I guess. Prelims are coming to an end soon, somehow I've got the feeling that I'm one of the four who failed physical geography. I'm scared the results would be a disappointment. I just hope to do well in Os to get into psychology, I will always have soccer to back me up. Precisely why I love soccer so much!(:
Each day i waste time thinking about you
Each night i dream about you
Each hour I wonder what you're doing
Each minute I long for you
Each second without you is agonizing
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Heyos, Prelims have officially started. I've been procastinating way too much and now I've got so much study. I'll only be concentrating on 3 to 4 topics for social studies. I really feel like a slacker now. I shall start studying again after I get back from tuition. I really hope to do well for prelims, and if I don't I'll stop playing soccer till end of Olevels I guess. I won't be using the com until end of prelims I guess. I need to do well in maths, geog, combined humanities and well, others. But I'm focusing on these few for now. And I realised, I have 4 humanities paper straight starting from monday to thursday. I pity my hand): Till end of prelims then, bye(:
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Most of the things I do, keep reminding me of you, especially when I'm alone. I remember all the conversations with you, the simple things you said that would make my day, those very simple things that made me see many things that I've been missing and putting aside in my life. I remember every single thing, but do you remember any of them? I doubt so. But what really happened to you? Why did you tell me all those lies,I've got no idea.Was it cause you thought it was wrong? Or was it because you didn't want to control yourself? I'll never know and I won't bother trying to figure any of those out anymore.Cause now, your just a goner in my life. DEAD AND GONE(:
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
The past few days have been going pretty well. I learnt something though, if you have no expectation of anyone, then you can be very happy. And when hoping, hope for the worst scenario, so it doesn't hurt when things go wrong(: I'm changing my phone tomorow, but I haven't decided which one yet.): I can't wait for o levels to be over!I'm pretty excited on what I can do.I wanna join a club for soccer, maybe only, then train 400m hopefully get to run for nationals. On the week after o levels, the friday we'll be having a class barbeque, then exactly one week after o levels there will be prom and we have to prepare the dance and stuff. I can't wait to do all those things, but to make time pass faster I have to really hit the books. And I'm gonna save up to buy that arsenal shirt I saw! I so want the shirt and jersey, but I'll just have to wait.(: Patience is a virtue.
I've got fire burning in my eyes,
even if you try you cant stop me.
